Head Over Heels

Giving up booze is hard.  This time it feels caffeine is the worst.  When I was pregnant with Scout I had to snuggle with the dog all day.  If I didn’t want to cook or was too tired to do stuff it didn’t matter.  The Captain just brought home take out.  I had no one to answer to so when I was tired, I took naps.  We weren’t buying a house and we weren’t spending an extra $200/month on feeding & diapering.  So I guess I didn’t notice how much better I function with several diet cokes. 

This time there’s a kid who wants all my attention.  And she requires that I cook, assemble & feed her meals.  She actually slept through the night and I got 7 hours of sleep (minus the night time peeing).  I woke up like 3 minutes before she started talking through the monitor.  And I’m still dragging ass. 

I wanted to go to Sonic on the way home from the store.  I wanted a Rt. 44 diet coke for $.89.  I settled for the mini cans of diet coke I bought to get some in my system with out the overload of caffeine.  I downed it in about 3 minutes.  I want more.